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Death. [03 May 2004|03:16pm]
Really cheesy post you will say... Im sad, im really sad.
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R.I.P. Charlotte, also known as Charlie.

May 1997 - may 2004

I loved you a lot. I'll miss you a lot... I already miss you too much...

So long, my bunny... Maybe im being ridiculous, but thats how I feel.

Your were albino, red eyes and white fur. And all your limbs and your ears were black and gray. You were unique, you were not like all the other ones... You loved it when I used to pet your head. You loved all my friends that liked you. You had those cat's and dog's manners of jumping around and acting. You will stay in my memory.

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#2. [21 Apr 2004|02:16am]
Thanks to anyone who came to the AOF show tonight, and thanks to all our supporters.
Thanks to everyone who bought our Demo CD and our T-shirt. And to anyone who came up to us to say they liked our music.

Thanks to Tyler for the amps.

If only they were reading this, I would like to thank AlexisOnFire for the support. <3

xo
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[15 Apr 2004|12:41pm]
"There are many horrors in the world, social and political. So many that there is simply no need for myself to contribute to them when I have the ability and the drive not to. "

Im still writing in my journal for myself, I know that people dont read big posts like I just wrote. But its interesting to see that some people still have something to say about it, and still take the time to read it.

In fact, by reading this, you could only get to know me better. Its not a post about my day, or how I spend my time, what fun things I did today. Its only about my deepest thoughts about some social and personal issues.

It doesnt mean you have to care about the cause, or agree with it. You can also comment by saying what bothers you. Its just about me, my mind and ideas. Personnaly I think that those are the most interesting facts about my friends, the mind and the ideas. So show me yours, I dare you.


Straight Edge, sXe, XXX... It became such a big deal these days, a trend, a fashion, a "criteria of acceptance", like some say.
And all the stupid jokes that come with it. Im used to it, im surrounded by regular people, my friends, my family, so im not offended when people are tempted to say some fun comment about it.

But some people think that all of this is wrong, that "its a lack of respect towards your own body" when you start to control it.

Just to remind them, the body cravings are often unjustified. We all have a brain to think and I strongly believe that basically people shouldnt be enslaved by their bodies.

In different ways, I chose to take over my body. I consider that people are minds, and that the body is secondary. Its a wild tiger you have to learn how to control properly, a vehicle. Some people just let it some loose space to move, but personnaly I prefer having it in total control. Thats another thing; I think that generally, in life, its better to know exaclty whats good for your body and whats not. And keeping whats not good completely out of your life.

There is some example to give through that to. Its like signing a petition agaisnt war, it states that you dont promote war in any way. But you do it also for your own war, so its like signing a petition agaisnt a weaker body, for the rest of your life, by just doing everything you can to evoluate through a clean way of managing the systems inside your body.

And by doing it ultimately, meaning never ever using a substance you chose not to use for the rest of your life, it shows that you clearly stand agaisnt what you think is bad for you and could be bad for other people. Such "useless but legal" things like alcohol and cigarette are killing and destroying people by their insides each year.

Ex.:
Only alcohol: accidents(any kind of accident. It could be falling in a staircase or a car accident), unwanted sexual activity(it can be called "rape"), adultery, broken families, alcoholism, intoxication, death.
And not only the consequences are important, but also the causes. Our government give us the right to destroy ourselves. So its considered legal to do an alcohol overdose(heavy intoxication), wich can kill you. And its all considered normal. Its even an excuse to be drunk and do something really wrong.

Then, how can people put their trust in a substance that is poisoning them from the first sip? Lets say you never drink more than one beer, and that it doesnt affect you. Why are you drinking it? It doesnt bring you anything healthy and you encourage the industry. Now, do you really want to promote this industry? You will say "yes, its my choice". But in fact you just dont care, it doesnt touch you. You're what I call a "careless" person. Its not that bad, but you shuold open your eyes someday.
If you really agree with promoting the industry, it means you agree with all the concequences it can cause to people around you. Imagine your parents having a big accident. Imagine your bestfriend breaking his neck falling in the stairs at a party, imagine your uncle staying at home drinking his beer and beating his kids and his wife. But of course it doesnt affect you, because those people are lucky and they are not that way, but they could have been.

Imagine your 11 year old kid drinking. Why would you dislike it so much? Because Its too young? Because you personnaly started drinking at 14 so you cannot tolerate the fact that your kid touches something "bad" being so young. If you dont want your kid to drink, why do you? Its not because you're older and mature that its better for you. You have more experience but thats it, it doesnt make alcohol being better for you. But its your own choice, you have your beliefs, keep them for you. Anyways if that is really what you want from your kids, you know it. Personnaly, I think its better if the parents are moderate. Thats what I call careless people, like I said in the previous paragraph. They're not as bad as obsessive people, they just have no real social opinion about this. They are independant and dont really care about the problem of others. They do their own things as individuals, they have no real social impact.

Lets take the same example with cigarette. Parents that smoke just annoy me. Then the 15 years old kid start smoking. You cant tell him to not smoke. You do it. Youre not better than your kid how can you show the example? Then you dont really care anymore, he tells you "yeah ill stop soon, im young and i do what i feel like, let me be a teenager." Yeah right, im sure your kid will stop smoking after a few years of nicotine inhalation. Who the f*ck are you to let people you "love" all die around you? Especially the people you should guide through life, your childrens. First, you promote the tobacco industry, and second, youre not even able to show the example concerning that industry.

And its basically the same thing for alcohol, drugs, one night stands. Oh yeah I knew some parents doing one night stands and tellling the teen that its cool if you use protection and have fun. Congratulations.

So just buy 'em cigarettes like you'd buy them needle if you were on heroin. Id beat up all those 40 years old dumbasses with a brass knuckle in each hand if I wasnt that Posi. Oh yeah I would.

Thats only a text, where I expose my personal opinions, if you disagree, I strongly invite you to send me a comment. Thanks.


And, second thing.
I was just reading things on some sites, things I could relate to. I wont just write it all myself because I found that those two guys think the way I do, concerning the fact of being straight edge.



Jacob Bannon, singer in the band Converge:

"Straight edge for all intents and purposes is the elimination of all negative dependencies in my life. There are many horrors in the world, social and political. So many that there is simply no need for myself to contribute to them when I have the ability and the drive not to.
On a personal slant, aspects of my life work against me everyday. In that respect, I am focused on the day to day responsibilities I have. I simply will do what I can to stay aware of what is happening in the world and not become a statistic."...



Greg Bennick, singer for the band Trial:

"Straight edge is the label I give to the part of my life, which deals with clarity of thought. I avoid intoxicants in order to be able to think and act clearly as often as possible. It is a lifestyle choice on a personal basis. This is the critical point for me: the personal element.
The group dynamic associated with straight edge is secondary and potentially threatening. Individuals get swallowed up by the group and in doing so lose their individual potency.
Overall, I feel that straight edge itself, or simply avoiding drugs and alcohol without the straight edge label, are both ways of life devoted to clarity of thought through protest: decrying a culture which is obsessed with avoiding pressing issues and ideas, and does so, in part through intoxication.
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Notes [14 Apr 2004|05:45pm]
Physically abusing myself and damaging myself, there's no time for that.

The social circles and musical trends that come with it are meaningless to me. I couldn't care less about who's the "in" crowd or who is the new token straight edge band of the hour.

To sum it up, to be straight edge is a conscious choice, an independent decision and a step towards ultimately eliminating outside negative influence. Why was Straight edge the right choice for me? I don't feel I could live any other way and feel like I was a positive in a world full of negatives. At least not with these ideals I have. In my definition, Straight edge is all encompassing in my life. It's something that's part of me and in turn something, which I don't have to wear on my sleeve as a symbol. I am that symbol, who I am, what kind of person I am and how I live my life.
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Another day to remember. April 4th 2004. [04 Apr 2004|11:11am]
[ mood | Loved ]

Day to remember:

Sunday, 04-04-2004

<3 E.B. + A.T. <3

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Another day to remember. [29 Mar 2004|04:01am]
Day to remember:

Sunday, March 28th 2004

Cutting hair, hoping the person really likes it.
Hardest haircut ever, it was really fun.
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[26 Mar 2004|07:03am]
You’re running faster than before, but you’re not trying.
High school drama doesn’t leave, it just changes faces.
I couldn’t ask for anything more even though I’m asking you.
I couldn’t ask for anything more even though I’m asking you.

What do you think? I think you should say something.
Silence will never tell. Tell me when I’ve said too much.
Don’t be afraid, I think you are strong enough to make it.
Don’t let what others say make you question your beliefs.

You couldn’t ask for anything more.
You’ve got all that you need.
You couldn’t ask for anything more.
You’ve got all that you need.

Listen to what you say.
Don’t try to say you’re sorry.
Sorry won’t change a thing.
Stick to your convictions.

What do you think? I think you should say something.
Silence will never tell. Tell me when I’ve said too much.
Don’t be afraid, I think you are strong enough to make it.
Don’t let what others say make you question your beliefs.


-By Ryan
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[24 Mar 2004|03:13am]
[ mood | thankful. happy. ]

This is another serious post about things id like to keep in mind.

March 24th, wednesday morning, and im writing here about my feelings because this is a journal. I always remind it to myself, and I will always remind it to myself by writing it. An habit.

So, this is about me, being happy. I know this is not the first time but its important to me.

I could'nt have more right now, I could not expect more than what I have, and for each and every little thing, im thankful. I truly appreciate it, more than I've ever did before. And this is all for one reason.

Thanks to everyone who are, or who were there for me. Everyone.

Thank you for everything, for every smile, for every word you told me.
For all the kisses on my cheeks, for all the arms that have been wrapped around me.
For all the tears, for all the faith, for all the truth, for all the thoughts.
For every single second each person spent loving me, liking me, hating me, talking to me, looking for me.

To my family, and to my second family, and to my friends.


And to my hero.

Thank you, sincerely.


-Antoine

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I know... [22 Mar 2004|04:39pm]
Oh and I have a new icon. This is my face, yes my face on an icon for the first time.

Thats something I have to remind myself, so I write it here. To remember the day I decided to put my face on a LiveJournal icon.

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[22 Mar 2004|03:32pm]
[ mood | Content. ]

Les choses avancent, j'ai l'impression que tout avance en même temps. En Avril on va probablement jouer 4 shows, je vais poster les dates plus tard pour ceux qui voudraient venir nous supporter. Les shows sont à Montreal.
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I had a really nice week-end, had a lot of fun, especially Saturday with Stef. (Next time might be Mövenpick?)

That was it for today.

And to end this, something for you people to read.
Enjoy and consider it, you scenesters.


As kids we're told to always play fair
Smile at your neighbor
And share, share, share.
In later years we're taught
To try and be the best:
"Look out for yourself, and f*ck all the rest".
Well, I would say in many ways
We learned much more in younger days. The obvious things
were all so plain to see
Like two for you, and two for me
If there are only four I don't need three
That's just how the world should be

"..."

If I'm down with straightedge
And you're down with skins
Then we'll mosh together
Because who shares wins.

-good clean fun

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I had a nightmare, that I was... a hardline [19 Mar 2004|06:38am]
Peaceful protest doesn't get the job done.
So I wake up for the rally, grab my soy milk and my gun.
Breakfast with the family, get the grub on, see what's up,
Then I saw my sister had milk in her cup
I jumped out of my chair and sprayed her with my mace
I yelled "vegan power,” and I kicked her in the face
Dad was bugging, he started to run
But he's a meat eater so I pulled out my gun
Shot him in the back, then I shot his wife
That's how it's got to be in defense of all life.
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[08 Mar 2004|04:35am]
[ mood | Bien ]

Je suis tellement content de tous vous connaitre. Spécialement toi, tu sais qui tu es, même si tu croies que c'est encore bizzare tout ca, que tu as besoin de temps pour voir si tu es capable de supporter le fait que je sois comme je suis.

Je suis bien. Je crois que je n'ai jamais été aussi heureux... Souvent je peux avoir l'air préoccupé par quelque chose. C'est toujours la même chose, c'est tout ca, parce que je suis tellement differend. Je change encore et encore. Peut-être pas de la manière que tout le monde aimerais, mais c'est moi.

Merci, merci a toi. Je tiens à toi, je crois que ca sert à rien que je te le cache. Tu le sais, mais ca, je crois que je vais jamais assez le dire. Tu peux t'en aller loin, je vais continuer a le penser.

Je suis si heureux pour toi.




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Et merci à vous.
Je suis content que vous soyez dans ma vie, à tout le monde que je connais, un peu, ou beaucoup. C'est précieux tout ca. Désolé d'être aussi quétaine. Je m'affirme maintenant

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Amusing. [01 Mar 2004|04:48am]
[ mood | chipper ]

Oh I think my heart collapsed when I saw you for the first time.

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[26 Feb 2004|03:12am]
[ mood | happy ]

Alex and Antoine
  • Trying to have a pair of happy kids.
  • Schedule times to hug each other nearly everywhere.
  • Together forever whatever the weather.
Orchestrated by ianiceboy
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[23 Feb 2004|02:06pm]
Bon,
tout a changé maintenant pour moi, les choses sont en train de changer pour le mieux. Ma vie a pris un tournant très different, ma vision des choses est differente aussi.

La confiance, ca se gagne. Je vais plus jamais la donner ausis gratuitement. La confiance c'est ce qu'on a à l'intérieur et qui fais qu'on se "dédie" à quelqu'un, à quelque chose.

Quand quelqu'un manque de confiance en nous, on ne peut rien faire de plus que s'inquiéter. Et c'est la que tout change et que tout se gâche.

Tant pis, la vie c'est comme ca, tu l'as dit toi même. Alors va acheter de la confiance ailleurs.

J'ai compris c'etais quoi ton plan et ca me degoute vraiment. Il n'y a rien, tout ce qu'il y eu cetais rien et il n'y aura plus jamais rien.

Désolé à tout le monde qui lis ca, c'est juste mon journal après tout.
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[18 Feb 2004|03:26am]
[ mood | loved ]

J'ai passé une vraiment belle soirée, dailleurs je ne l'oublierai jamais, comme tout les autres moments que j'ai passé avec toi. On dirait que je ne réussirai jamais à te dire assez à quel point je t'aime.

Je t'aime.
Je t'aime tellement fort.

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[16 Feb 2004|02:50am]
[ mood | loved ]

Light beams through
windows stream into my eyes
my eyes explode like red ballons
as it reminds me of you so long ago

wind blows through
a hole in the roof
brings your perfume like lillies to me
and all I can do is remember you

When was the last time
I held you all through the nigh
feels like a zillion years
and I dont wanna wait more
to find you and still lose
you want to stay far
tell me

When was the last time
I held you all through the night
Never a worry would run through my heart like a knife
feels like a zillion years
and i dont want to wait more
to find you and still lose
you want to stay far
one more night
and i want to know who you are
tell me

When was the last time
I held you all through the night
Never a worry would run through my heart like a knife
When was the last time
I held you all through the night
Never a worry would run through my heart like a knife
tomorrow is much too late

I need you now, be my light
tomorrow is much to late
I need you now



[by -chris conley]

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The Heartshape of punk to come. [15 Feb 2004|05:20am]
[ mood | Really tired ]

Thanks to everyone that came to the show tonight.
Thanks to Christina for lending me her belt and her flower.

Thanks to all the bands, it was a great show. Especially FLORENCE, BLESSED BY A BROKEN HEART, FAIRMOUNT, MY MISERY, SINCERELY YOURS, and FULL COUNT.

Thanks to Emma and Roxanne for taking good care of our merch table.

Big thanks:
Thanks for all the cheers, kisses and hugs, for all the Valentine's cards too. You all know who you are. ANGELA!, Katharine :), Jamie, Taylor, Adrian, Chrissy, Tania, Nick, Alex, Chris, Marco, Tara, Adam 1, Adam 2, Mate, Matt L, Joe, Matt F, Gates, JasonosaJ, Kevin, Vicky, Mike, Lil'Mike, Antoine, Tommy, and finally Christina again.

Special thanks to Maura for dancing with me.


And the biggest thanks ever, to my little heartshaped shining beauty. I love you. Take care of you please. <3

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some kind of wonderful [09 Feb 2004|03:01pm]
[ mood | worried ]

another day
waking up to find myself in the same way
feeling homeless, and helpless, this world's
heartless

take some time
and watch these problems drift away
i'm here to say

who are you to put me in this situation?
what can you do that's going to help me now?
when did you learn to care about no one?
where can i go tonight?
and that's why...

what you do
is going to echo in our lives
don't take what they say
and let it lead to your own demise

because soon you're going to find out yourself out
on your own, on my own
don't let them make you believe
you're just another tragedy

fame and too
little trust, no common sense
will be the death of you
departed, it's over before it's started

i needed a little help
and that was plain to see
you never melt with me

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[05 Feb 2004|11:47am]
[ mood | good ]

I know im not an example, im probably not right about it all. But are you right about yourself?
When you start tu judge do you look at yourself and think "hey maybe this person isnt making a mistake".
Believe in your own things, choose your own path. Just dont forget the respect, the fellowship, all the true love and the dedication you can bring to something, it priceless. And that big family we are.

There's no stupid competition, there's no race going on. You have to understand what you say and what you do, there's always something hidden beneath every word and every action you do.

Yes I admit I seem like someone wrong. Well im always there for a debate about anything, im not the kind who dont want to talk about this in a 2 ways conversation.


Besides that, im posting lyrics again, from 'mates of state', expressing a legitimate form of dedication and true love that people often mistake for something false.
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Home's all right
I believe, I believe you have your instinct to expect that I'll change
The decision is yours, trust yourself
Oh, to keep with this ease history
The decision is yours, trust yourself
We'll take it as it comes
You carry me on

What if the sun is right?
You can't change that source in a day
What if desire is truth?
You can't change that source in a day
What have we sought to learn?
What more could you ask for?
What about service fares?
You can't change that source in a day
What if that star was right?
What else could you ask for?

Hold this night
I can see, I can see how it poured once before
The decision is yours, trust yourself
The thoughts form on call

What if the sun is right?
You can't change that source in a day
What if desire is truth?
You can't change that source in a day
What have we sought to learn?
What more could you ask for?
What about service fares?
You can't change that source in a day
What if that star was right?

Could you tell me what it means to plan?
Have you chosen me to be your jointed hands?

Put in your stakes and be glad
That this is something static and solemnly invincible
I've waited for you
Ascending a stage at a time, admiring all the way
As we push and pull and take and give
You waited for me

I trust into the order of things this once, this once
Love to be you
I could be you
I stand

Come on everybody and show how to stand
Come on everybody and prove what a stand
Come on everybody and show how to stand
Come on everybody and stand.

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